One of the things spiritual which we must know and imbibe is that we do *not* walk by sight. Woe is the man who trusts in the arm of flesh. Our object of trust is designed to be in things spiritual. This then brings about things physical.
You are dirty, messed up, screwed up and think you don’t matter to God, you think you used up your dose or allocation of grace, mercy and love…
Stop looking at yourself.
Look at Abraham your father
Look at Sarah your mother
Then now *looking*unto Jesus.